Monday, March 05, 2012

New beginnings

I can't believe it's been 3 months since I got back home. Time is running fast and sometimes that can even be a good thing.

I felt really lost when I came back home because I had absolutely no idea what to do with my life now. I talked to leaders here and they had some ideas to pray about, and I did. 3 weeks, and nothing changed. And then my birthday came at the beginning of January. I was praying on that day and was just crying to God, asking Him for a gift for my birthday. I asked Him to give me a vision, an idea, a dream, a Word... anything about my future. I needed something and I was pretty desperate.
Next day I met with my pastor and his wife to talk about my time at Bible College, about my plans for now and how I'm doing. I told them I was thinking of helping a Junior High group in Ljubljana, kind of stepping out in faith. They said they heard about that and that they have a need in Kočevje (an hour away from Ljubljana) with a group of Junior High kids, and they were wondering if I was up for taking that group. I told them I'd pray about it and let them know. God didn't speak about it to me but He didn't have to. He told me before I came home that I need to step out in faith. I didn't know what that means but He clearly opened the door for me to step out in faith, and I did. 2 months later I work with Junior High kids in Kočevje, Junior High kids in Ljubljana and Junior High girls (a seperate group) in Ljubljana. I also work with kids in Sunday School in Radovljica, an hour away from Ljubljana (where there was recently a church plant), and I help with Sunday School in my church.

God opened the door for me to try different ministries and to step out and see what I want to do. My pastor and his wife work with a Child Evangelism Organization (CEF) and they took me on board. I'll be going to a CEF conference with them, meeting people from all over the world who work for the organization and I've been given an amazing gift from God. I only obligated or agreed to do this until September because I really feel like September is going to be some kind of a turning point for me. I'll either go and study to be a Preschool teacher or I'll go to something else God calls me to; maybe full time ministry, maybe He'll provide a job and I'll do some ministry alongside of that... I don't know. But I know where He called me today and tomorrow and until September. I don't have to know about the future; He does.

February was an interesting month. Metka is my mentor and a full time missionary. She also works with CEF and I go with her to most events and to one of the Good News clubs she has for kids. I'm learning a lot. We were doing a lot of promoting during the school holidays and it was just around Pust (which is like Halloween in the States). Metka, Dubravka (pastor's wife) and me dressed up and went on the streets of Kočevje to promote the show with clowns that came from Croatia. It was a lot of fun and we had some good times.


March is going to be busier than I thought it will be, but in a good way. It's spring, it's getting warmer and I'm excited for all the new adventures God is taking me on. It's usually a bumpy ride but it's always a safe one.

Thursday, January 05, 2012

The Gospel

His creation

Since I got home, I tried to keep myself busy with things (as much as that's possible with having almost nothing to do).
I've been watching one TV show called Lie To Me. It's about a group of scientists who examine people's faces to figure out if they're lying or not.
As I'm watching this, I started thinking how awesome it is that God created us with so many emotions and so many face mimics that show our emotions. If we're mad, sad, happy, joyful, proud, violent, ashamed or if we're hidding something... it's written on our face. How awesome is that? It's true that it's sometimes really hard to read someone's face and figure out what they're thinking or going through, but some are just very obvious and hard to hide.
How did God create humans in such an amazing and complicated way? He gave us brains, bodies... do you ever wonder or think about how complicated our body system is? How could that just happen?

I'm always amazed at the creation of our God.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

My Jesus, my life!

When a person decides to fully follow Jesus, to give Jesus his life, the whole hell will come against him.
Satan tempts, tries to stop that person by giving them sickness, doubts, Satan attacks that person spiritually... just so they would give up and be defeated.

What is that person's comfort? Jesus.

Jesus is the only way, the truth and the life.
Jesus is the living Son of God.
Jesus is the Lord. Our Lord.
Jesus is the Almighty one!
Jesus is our Savior!
Jesus is in control over everything!
Jesus is Sovereign!
Jesus is a jealous God!
Jesus loves us!
Jesus is our hope!
Jesus is our peace!
Jesus is the ultimate Healer!
Jesus is our Provider!
Jesus is the Holy of hosts!
Jesus is God!
Jesus is the bread of life!
In Jesus is the eternal life!
Jesus is our best friend!
Jesus is our everything!

Life can be very hard, with or without Jesus. But with Jesus there is hope, peace, comfort, and eternal life. Life with Jesus is so much better than any different kind of life.
Jesus is my life!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Home, sweet home

I've been home for 3 full days now and I must say it feels good. I love being somewhere I know the culture, the streets, where I have my own bed and almost my own room. Freedom! :)

It's also hard to be home. There's no Christian bubble and it's up to me how I spend my days. I love it that our college group here is reading through the Bible and that I was able to jump right in with them. We read approx. 2 books per week and then meet once a week to talk about them. I went on Tuesday for the first time and I loved it! God is taking care of me!

He's also doing something but I don't exactly know what it is. I've been thinking of maybe going to the States for a month or two since I have no obligations here yet (no school or job...) but I'm not sure that's what He has in mind. We'll see. I applied for a job in preschool today since it just happened that there were 2 open spots for preschool teachers. Is it God opening doors or just a coincidence? Will I even get the job? We'll see. My time here really is in His hands now and I'm open for whatever He has for me.

There's also a lot going on at home... and we'll see what will happen. I can see God working and allowing things that aren't necessarily good in our eyes but we can't see His plan. I trust He knows what He's doing and I pray He'll make all things work together for our good. Would you pray with me that I would continue completely trusting Him and having faith in Him, and that whatever happens, He will be glorified? Would you also pray for salvation of my family? They need Jesus, His hope and peace.

I thank you all for support and prayers in my transition. It really means a lot and it makes it all easier.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

It's not a "goodbye"; it's a "see you later".

Tomorrow is the last day before my journey of Bible College finishes.
I’ve been here for a year and a half and it’s basically been the beginning of my walk with the Lord; the summer before my first semester was a preparation for it.

I’ve experienced many tough, hard, sad and extreme moments here, and many many happy, joyful, exciting and blessed ones as well. I’ve met people that became some of my closest friends and went through a lot with me. I’ve learned lessons I wouldn’t learn at home.
God’s been such a good Teacher and He’s lead me gently and sometimes harshly; whatever He knew was best for me. But He never stopped loving me, no matter what. The way He revealed Himself to me in the past year and a half was unbelievable. I experienced God as my Father, my Teacher, my Best Friend and my Husband. He’s been faithful to me and He never let me go. The best thing about it is that this is only the beginning of my journey with my God; and it’s still the beginning of my walk with Him.
Going home is one of the hardest things right now; not because I wouldn’t want to go home – I can’t wait to be with my family and friends, to have my own bed again, to live in a city that I know – but Vajta has become my home and it’ll always be my home in a way. It’s just hard to move on but changes are necessary AND good.