Friday, January 25, 2013

8 days!!! :)

The time has come - we leave for Ghana in 8 days!! Can you believe it? 8 DAYS!! I can hardly believe my dreams are coming true - I am going to Africa after dreaming about it for 9 years. God is good for sure!

Other than that, life has pretty much been a routine of a study group with 12-year olds, of hours spent with kids at the kids center and of sharing the word of God with teenagers. This month we spiced things up - we're having a missionary month since I'm going to Ghana as a missionary. I'm sharing one of my favorite stories with the kids - a story through which God spoke to me about Africa and especially about tribes. It's a story of Mary Slessor; a Scottish lady with blue eyes and curly red hair. She went to Calabar, Nigeria, when she was 28 years old. She lived there until her death (66 years old). She worked with tribes, with people who had never heard the word of God before. God used her in mighty mighty ways and I higly recommend her biography! Teenagers love her story and can't wait until the next week so they can hear more :)

Mary with some children she saved.
(Tribes believed when twins were born they brought a curse over the whole village so they killed them. She was the one who tried to save them.)

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I get Greg Laurie's devotionals on my email every morning and sometimes I get encouraging messages from his wife too. This one was especially encouraging because I've been waiting to go to Africa for so long but also because I am waiting for that special someone to come into my life and marry me. God's timing is always better than mine.

Maybe this will be encouraging for you too, in any way.


What good comes of waiting?

In Mark’s Gospel, we read the story of a man who certainly thought Jesus was too late. As a matter of fact, his friends even told him, “There’s no use troubling the Teacher now.”

Like a first-century 9-1-1 call, Jairus reached Jesus by falling on his knees and begging attention for his only daughter, who was 12 years old and dying of a fever. His only hope was hanging by a single thread in the form of this young Rabbi from Galilee.

But as Jairus is hurrying Jesus back to his house, hoping it isn’t going to be too late, a huge crowd is pushing and slowing the way, to the point of almost crushing them.

Suddenly, Jairus’ plan is derailed when Jesus stops and asks, “Who touched me?” Everyone denied it. And Peter said, “Master, the crowd surrounding you is pressing in on you.” But Jesus knew someone touched the tassels of his garment and power had flowed out of him.

In those agonizing moments of time, a nameless destitute woman had come from behind and cut in line, securing her healing. Jairus may have been thinking, “This woman, sick as she may be, would have lived another day. Why is Jesus stopping to speak to her now?

It’s curious—how easy it is to dismiss the need of others as insignificant when we compare them to our own. So often we can’t see beyond our own needs. And that is why Jesus’ dealings were so often surprising—even disturbing—to everyone. It was the tax collectors, notorious sinners, lepers, and immoral women who reached His heart. He had as much concern for the nameless, insignificant, poor, and chronically sick woman as he had for this obviously “deserving” ruler of the synagogue.

For Jairus, how could he have known that both healing and resurrection were easily within Jesus’ power? So rare are resurrections in Scripture, there are only six ever recorded. So it isn’t likely that option would have entered his mind. Jesus was about to do exceedingly abundantly above all he could ask or think! All in His good time. . .

And Jesus also knew He was not going to allow this woman to leave with just a quick fix for her physical problem. What she needed was an encounter that would pale in comparison to a healing. It would transform her inside out. She would hear the words, “Take heart, My daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace.”

Why does God’s allow delays? I don’t know all the answers to this question, especially when I am in the thick of a desperate situation, but there are a few principles that I can learn from the case of Jairus.
  1. People matter to Jesus. All kinds of people, not just the rich, influential, “good” folks. This woman was “unclean,” destitute, and isolated, but despite how others looked at her, Jesus wouldn’t risk losing her in the crowd. His compassion extended beyond a mere healing; He wanted to make sure she was set free from bondage and at peace with God. “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”
  2. Delays are often His way of taking the self-centeredness in our hearts and knocking it out. How often I have prayed in recent years, Lord Jesus, just come now! Take us all home; isn’t it about time? Yet in the years that I have waited, how many more souls have been born into eternal life? In my selfish desire to be delivered, have I forgotten that God is exceedingly patient to those I may not give a passing glance at?
  3. In our waiting places, we need to see the needs of others we can tend to in Christ’s name. We can and should rejoice that in delays we have more time to spread the Good News to as many people as we can!
  4. What lies in our future, beyond the waiting and pain, is often an even greater and more glorious answer than we could imagine. Jairus would see Jesus’ power displayed in such a tender and loving way. His little girl would have her touch from the Master in good time. We read Jesus’ words, spoken gently, Talitha koum: “Little lady, wake up.” Even in the worst case scenario, death, our greatest enemy, isn’t to be feared. In the end, it will have no power over the believer. It will be nothing more than a sweet night’s sleep from which we will hear our Savior say, “Dear one, it is time to get up.”
Can we trust Him when our time schedules are stretched to the limits and snapped? Jairus didn’t know how this would end, or that a resurrection would tap no more of Jesus’ power than healing a fever. Jesus said to him, “Don’t be afraid; just believe.”

However, in our in-between time, between our pleas for help and the answer that is certainly coming, may we read these words and hear Him say to us: Don’t be afraid; just believe!

All who believe will hear their own “Talitha koum.”

by Cathe Laurie

Friday, December 07, 2012

A long time coming update

I'm aware of the fact I haven't updated my blog in a couple of months. It's time, I know.

1. JUNIOR HIGH in Ljubljana
This year I took over the Junior High group in Ljubljana and I must say it's been going very well. Meta and Mladen are leading with me. We don't have as many kids coming this year (4 in average) but I think it's a good thing for now - we can really invest in these 4, 5 kids and get some really strong foundations. We're talking about God's character in the first half of the year and about Jesus' character in the second half.

2. JUNIOR HIGH in Kočevje
We kind of started this group in March this year but it was only 2x a month. From November on we've been meeting every Saturday and it's amazing to see what God's been doing. There are mostly kids from church in Kočevje but there are also some that are atheists and some catholics. It's a very different group of kids than Ljubljana but that's a good thing. Also, they're from 10 to 17 years old so it's tricky to have a discussion with all of them sometimes. We're still working on that.
We're meeting in a pizza place that hasn't been working in 15 years. An American family, that moved to Kočevje 4 months ago, lives above it and they help out with the junior high group. We're talking about the basics - does God exist, how do we know that, what they think about it.. we watched a movie To Save A Life and we're going to do a follow up for the next 2 weeks.

When I started working with Junior Highers in January this year, I had no idea what I'm going into. I never worked with them before and honestly, I didn't really want to. God did open these doors and my heart so I tried. He is amazing - I love both of the groups and I love kids that come. They are all very different but so great and I'm thankful God "pushed me" into working with Junior Highers. It's rewarding (even though sometimes I still have no idea what I'm doing).

3. I MOVED INTO MY OWN PLACE!
I've been praying about moving since Jan this year and I kind of had an agreement with God that I'll stay home and be a light for my family in times of trouble but I asked to move out in Sept or Oct.
It was a very long process of praying and thinking and even stepping out in faith... but in the end God was again so faithful. He provided a perfect place, He provided money and He provided everything else, including furniture. I bought a bed (with a drawer that you can pull out and you have an extra bed) for 10€ and I got table and chairs from my grandma. My mom bought a lot of food for me and just took care of me like only she can.
I'm so thankful for this place.. I finally feel free and it feels amazing! :)

4. ONLY 2 MONTHS UNTIL I GO TO GHANA!
Yes, it's coming.. it's right around the corner :) I'm super stoked about it and I don't even realize it yet..
I got my yellow fever shot, I'm gonna get hepatitis A+B + one kind of meningitis shot.. and we're almost in a process of getting our visas. Everything is going like it's suppose to.. for now. Let's pray nothing goes wrong!

So, life is pretty good right now. There are also spiritual attacks and stuff - they never really end - but it's just a sign I'm going into the right direction.


God is good and faithful - what else can I ask for? ;)

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Back in Slovenia

Yes, I've been in Slovenia for almost a week now, since Monday. I can't say I'm back home because I don't feel like Slovenia is my home. I know I'll be home in heaven but travelling a lot and having been around different cultures so much makes me feel like I don't have a home. In a good way!!

My last 10 days in the States were awesome. We went to Virginia beach for 4 days. I saw the ocean for the first time and got to see dolphins!! Shaunice and I were swimming and throwing ourselves into the waves when we saw 2 fins swimming 5m away from us! Shaunice screamed "shaaaarks!" and we RAN out of the water. Later on we googled if Virginia beach actually has sharks, and it does, but we found out big fish we saw were dolphins.





After the 4-day vacation I stayed with the Aikoo's for another 6 days and then left for Slovenia. It was a really hard week, knowing I'm saying goodbye soon. We all felt the pressure of the last week. 
My flight back was very smooth, at least the long one. I couldn't sleep at all, even though we flew overnight. I had an 8-hour layover in Amsterdam and was very tired by the time when I was on a plane again. It was a very rocky flight, that one, we landed right before a huge storm. 

I felt a lot different spiritually in the States. I felt no big attacks, I felt good, there wasn't much fear. I was resting big time, that's true, but the spiritual flow is just different than in Slovenia. As soon as I came back to Europe, and especially Italy and Slovenia, I felt fear. Much fear. After 35 hours of no sleep it still took me an hour to fall asleep and stop being afraid! What am I afraid of here? I don't really know. But I could sense a huge difference! 

I am excited about the new season in front of me. I kept hearing "be faithful in what God called you to do" in the past month and I find that really hard to do. I so long to go to Africa that it's hard for me to be in Slovenia with my heart and my mind but God is warning me before hand to be faithful in what He's called me to do. Thank you, Lord, right? Still, it's hard. Please, pray I would be faithful and obedient in things He gave me to do here in Slovenia. 

There are a lot of changes happenning - one of them is that I am moving out! In January I knew why God wanted me to stay at home - to be His light for my family. It's been over 6 months and I know it's time to move on and start living my own life, with no pressure, no fear and no depression that I so easily become a part of at home. 
I only have a plan for a month so I am pretty much stepping out in faith, beliving God will provide all that I need. Please, be praying for this as well. 

As soon as I came home, fear came upon me about my mom and about my health. My back has been hurting very much and my left part of the body is acting weird (my nerv system is not working like it's suppose to). I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I know God is in control but I am still a bit scared of what's going on. Please, keep me in prayer that God will give me courage, strength and peace to overcome these struggles, which are hopefully only temporary. 

I find out my schedule tonight, I'm very excited! Since I am a full-time student with 2 jobs now, I am sensing it'll be a lot different than what it used to be :) but I am excited. I will try to be a student (for Preschool teacher) if I will be able to go to school and study at the same time as work and do ministry. If I won't be able to, that's okay. I am trying new things and God opened the door for me to try them out. 

Concerning ministry, I am working with Junior Highers in Ljubljana (last year we had 2 groups which we united into one) and with Junior Highers in Kočevje (we started in March and we will be trying different things this year, with different people on the team). I will also be helping out with Sunday school and other kids projects we do. 
In order for me to be a part of Junior High group in Kočevje, I need to start driving a car again, after 5 years of not driving at all. I have a week until I actually need to drive on my own so that's a huge prayer request as well. I've been praying and asking God for wisdom, courage and special abilities for the whole summer and I practised a bit already but now I need to press on. 

Thank you for being a part of my life and for praying for me! Let me know how you're doing and how I can be praying for you! 

"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." - 1 Corinthians 10:13

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Another week in the States.

I've been back in Maryland for almost a week now and we keep ourselves pretty busy :)

In the mornings Shaunice homeschools Gabrielle and then we always go and do something fun. We either wait for Gus to come home from work and then do something fun or we have the car and drive somewhere. They've taken me to all the stores we don't have - Target, Walmart, Ross, Michael's (my favorite!), TJ Max.. and we usually just window shop :)

Since Gabby is homeschooled and needs some field trips, and I wanted to see some museums in Washington DC, we decided to go downtown and explore all the exhibitions. We were planning on doing more on Monday but ended up only exploring the museum of holokaust. It was pretty amazing and horrifying. I learned about Hitler and the Nazi's at school but never connected it to the Bible. I never connected that Jews that Hitler so wanted to get rid of are God's chosen nation.
Anyway, it was a really good exhibition.
We went to see the National gallery of art of Tuesday, and then the museum of air and space. It was pretty great but we were sooo tired that we didn't enjoy it as much as we could. I also had the original Philly Cheese-stake. YUM! (even though I kind of wish it would be a bit more greasy. I guess Americans like to live a healthy life?)

We're not planning on doing anything special today BUT I am going to a Hillsong concert tomorrow with Ashley Nicole, one of the girls that lives here and is friends with the Aikoo's but we're good friends too. And then on Friday morning... we're going to the beach! :) We're going to spend 4 days at Virginia beach and go to the outlet and visit Thomas Powell's church. Super exciting!

Since I still didn't manage to get the internet on my computer, I can't upload any picture but I will soon.

Living with the Aikoo's has been so encouraging and so nice. When we were still in Hungary, we became really close. I see them as my family and living with them for a couple of weeks has been such a huge privilege. I don't know what God's plan is for all of us but I'm hoping and praying He will call us somewhere together. We'll see :) He knows what He's doing. 

Wednesday, September 05, 2012

End of summer 2012

I think this was one of my favorite and also one of the hardest summers.

Cricket camp was a very stretchy and easy camp. I know those two don't go together but it's true.
It was easy because we knew the place where we had the camp and we only had 11 kids signed up. Why it was stretchy for me is because I had some physical problems that occupied my mind too much and I was too stressed and worried to completely focus on the camp. My ankles were swollen, so was my right knee, and I had no idea why. I tried to rest and put ice on it as much as I could but there was no real progress.
I left Cricket camp before it ended and went to prepare things to Cakovec, Croatia where we had our Performing Arts Camp. It's my favorite camp of the year and I was soooo looking forward to it!

We had around 40 youth come to PA Camp + the same team from Modesto, CA that came last year! That was exciting since we became good friends!
The theme of this year's camp was Light The Night and most of the songs had the word "light" in them. They were amazing songs and this year's program was a lot longer than last year's. I think we did an amazing show  and God touched all of us in a mighty and very powerful way! Youth started thinking about God in a different way, I even saw God moving kids in my discussion group. I loved seeing them think and struggle a bit with some of the questions. My friend Tarisa also accepted Jesus into her life after years of thinking about it and being afraid of making that step! She did though, and we're all soooo excited! :)
God also did so much in my heart. I was very tired and I found myself crying and sobbing in my room a couple of times in that week, just pouring my heart to Him and asking Him for help.
I've had this huge struggle with fear in my life. I think it became really intense when my mom got cancer and was struggling. One of my biggest fears was that I'll get sick and die. The Lord spoke into that lie in May but I still struggled with it. We had a labyrinth night at PA camp and I was at one of the stations where you had to think about something you wanted to get rid of in your life, write it on a rock and throw that rock on the field. You also had to write down something your life is in need of, write it on a rock and keep it. I wrote "fear" on the one I threw away. I prayed over it and told the Lord I don't want it to be just something I did with a rock. I told God I wanted His help in leaving my fear of sickness and death behind. I could see the changes in the next day and by His grace I am able to fight with the fear now and really say no to it and not just let it take control over my life. It's still a struggle, don't get me wrong... but it's different. I'm doing something about it now instead of just laying on the floor, letting it beat me and take my joy.
It was an amazing camp.

A day after PA camp was done I had a privilege to fly to the States for the first time! :) I didn't write about it before because I wanted to surprise one of my friends and didn't want people to know and tell her.
I flew to Washington DC and am staying with my schoolmates from Bible College who live in Beltsville, Maryland. God was very gracious to me and He provided money and time for me to visit my dear friend Callie who was also my schoolmate at Bible College and lives in Phoenix, Arizona. I am staying with her right now actually and I fly back to Maryland tomorrow morning.


I love the States and I actually don't miss home at all :) I love tasting new food (mostly fast food), meeting new people and seeing black people! Love it :) DC is not a lot different than Europe but Phoenix is since it's a desert. I love it here though. Arizona is really clean - you're not going to see trash on the floor, anywhere! It's also very hot but the heat is dry which makes it bearable.



I've been experiencing God's love in a huge way. I know He always loves me and He always shows me His love, in different ways. But the way He's been showing me His love at PA camp and in the States... it's just amazing. The fact I'm visiting my friends in the States in great. But these are not just my friend from Bible College. These people are my family. We lived together for a year and went through a lot in that time. We went to Slovenia and Serbia for a 10-day outreach, we played cards, we laughed, cried, hugged and fought with each other. We became a very close family and I was able to come here and visit them.
I don't know if you can imagine the joy and happiness I'm experiencing and feeling.

I've been asking God to be a specific person to me when I have hard days. When I feel lonely and excluded, I ask Him to be my Best Friend, and He is. When I feel unloved, I ask Him to be my Father, and He is. When I feel sad because I so long to get married and have my own family, I ask Him to be my Husband. And He is. Right now He is being my Father in a huge way. He is loving me, providing for me and caring for His little girl like dads do.
God is pretty amazing, don't you think? Yes, He lets trials come, He sometimes disciplines us... and that's what He has to do. But the way He loves us... wow. I just wish I could love on people like He does. 

Thursday, August 09, 2012

Reaching Out To Ghana


"How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in?
And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard?
And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?

And how can anyone preach unless they are sent?
As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!
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~ Romans 10:14-15



Africa's been on my heart for many years; something about it just always attracted me. I've always liked adventure and unique things and I always wanted to help people there.
I remember the wish of going to Africa started becoming really strong when I was 15 years old.



I became a Christian 2 years ago, when I was 21 years old. When I got saved, I decided to go to Calvary Chapel Bible College Europe. I wanted to learn how to live as a Christian and I knew I would be making slow progress at home.
I also knew I wanted to be a missionary. I applied for a Bible College Bachelors program but a month in the semester God very clearly spoke to me, saying “You're coming back next semester, and you're applying for the 1-year Missions Training Program.“
And so I did.

The program is very similar to a normal Bible College program but it has some differences. We studied lives of first missionaries to Africa, India, South America... We looked closely at their methods and principals and discussed what we would or could do when we go on a mission field. We also read a lot of biographies which gave me an even bigger picture of how the Lord really works and how big He is.

God gave me a very personal promise in November 2011 – it was the end of church service and we were worshiping the Lord. I was praying about my future and God gave me such a clear picture of a red path, green hills around it and my feet on the path while I was walking towards a near village. He only said one word - “someday”. It was a picture of Africa, and the promise brought so much peace into my heart. I knew that someday I'll be going to Africa to bring the Good News to the lost.

I finished Missions training program in December 2011 and went home. I was praying and seeking the Lord for a month on what the next step was, and He answered by opening a door for me to try different kinds of ministries in my city and my church. I joined an already existing Junior High group, started working in two new Junior High groups, and started helping in two Sunday Schools and in Good News Clubs for kids. God’s been teaching me so much and I can see how He's been preparing me for working with children in the future.

I stayed in contact with some of my schoolmates from Bible College and there was the Aikoo family that I knew was going to Ghana for 2 months to spy the land and decide what to do next. I talked to them in March and they told me they're planning on going to Ghana for a 10-day missions trip with their church in February 2013, and they invited me to come with them. Since I had no idea what I'm doing in September and because I thought there's no way for me to go, I said no. We talked again in May and then it occurred to me “Why can't I go? Whatever I am doing, I can take 10 days off.” And so I talked to my pastor and his wife and got their blessing, got the peace about it from God, and decided to go!

After I got the picture of Africa and God said “someday”, I had no idea He was going to open the door for me to go to Africa for the first time in such a short time! What an amazing God I serve!

My main reasons for going are:
·         to get a real picture of Africa (picture of Africa in my head may not be the same as real Africa actually is!)
·         to spy the land, step out in faith and see if Ghana would be a place where God would want me to go
·         to meet Christians in Ghana and encourage them by helping out with needs they have


The missions trip will last 10 days and for now we only know it will be in the beginning of February 2013. I’ll be joining a team from Calvary Chapel Breath of Life Upper Marlboro in Maryland, where the Aikoo family goes to. I don't know many details about the trip yet but I do know we would fly to Accra, the capital of Ghana, and then fly to Tamale which is the capital of Northern Ghana. We would visit the churches there and encourage the already established churches by giving testimonies, practically coming alongside them for any help they need, evangelize unreached areas (perhaps with skits or dramas) and help in children’s and women’s ministry.





 Would you please pray for:
1. God's guiding hand upon the whole trip
2. God’s protection over us during the whole trip
3. wisdom and discernment on how to work and live in Ghana
4. guidance about my future
5. God's provision






Hope you are well!
Please let me know how you are doing and how can I pray for you.

     

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Crazy summer

I can't believe how fast time goes by - it's been almost 3 months since my last update!

May was a month of one day events and endings of Junior High groups + Good News Clubs. We finished those early this year so we could really focus on getting ready for the summer and all the camps!

We had our first camp at the end of June, and it was kids camp in Crikvenica, Croatia. We actually had 2 camps at the same time; English Camp and Gospel Camp! It was awesome and I think it was one of the best, if not the best, camps I've ever been a part of!


 Right after that camp (literally, the next morning) I left for a Junior High Camp in Zgornje Gorje at Bled! We had 20 Junior Highers and it was a really good camp but also hard for me. I never really spent a week with teenagers before (except when I was one) and also, I was tired. The enemy didn't rest as well, as usual. BUT God was great, faithful and SO loving! Our Slovene team really connected and I'm grateful for each of them.


After that camp I was at home for 2 weeks, working at the kids playhouse where I babysit and play games with kids. Sad thing happened - my phone got stolen while I was running a birthday party for one of the kids. Life goes on and God provided another phone :)


We left for KRIŽ July 20. KRIŽ (cross) stands for K-kristus (Christ), R-resnica/rast (truth, growth), I-integriteta (integrity) and Ž-življenje (life). It's a 2-year program for Slovene Christians and this year we added a bit to it. There's another "program" inside KRIŽ and it's called Naveza which means "roped", on the rope. The picture of it is when 2 (or more) people are climbing, they're roped together. One of them is leading but if he falls, the person behind him needs to pick him up and vice versa.


So... I'm a Naveza leader which means I'm leading myself and a girl named Ana towards our goal but I'm not like a mentor. It's a discipleship program (we're learning how to be fishers of men and how to teach others to be fishers of men to teach other to be fishers of men...) but we're both sharing and learning.




I came home today and I'm getting ready for August. It'll be a crazy month. I'll go to 2 camps - cricket camp for kids (it'll be in the wilderness) and Performing Arts Camp.

The schedule is super busy but it's a huge privilege to be God's worker and seeing Him work in Slovenia in a MIGHTY way! He's raising up future leaders of our country and it's just incredible to see them grow in the Lord.

Please continue praying for all the camps and all the kids! We've never seen so much fruit than this summer! The walls of Slovenia are breaking and all we're doing is shouting and blowing the trumpets + believing in God; the rest is all Him.