He's got it.

I've had a priviledge to stay in my friend Metka's house for 2 weeks while she went to the States. I had a lot of time for myself, to read my Bible, to gather my thoughts, to listen to sermons, to listen to worship music, to cook and bake which I LOVE and to just feel free and independent. Living with my parents is ok but it's pretty much time for me to slowly move out and live my own life.
I've been reading Luke in the past 2 days and God really spoke to me through verses that have always stood out to me:

"Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

   “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well." - Luke 12:22-31

God just reminded me how I don't trust Him even though I've always had everything I needed AND more, yet... I want to have things under control, I want to figure things out, I want to worry and I keep worrying. What did God say? 

"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?"

He worries for me, I don't have to. It's a good but hard lesson to learn, that's for sure. But it's so crucial and important because if I ever want to be in ministry, I'm going to have to trust God. Even if I won't be in ministry, I'll have to learn how to trust Him. Why would I want to worry when He's got it? 
It's better for me to learn this now than later, even though I think I'll be learning this lesson my whole life. Yet He is so faithful and so patient... and so loving.
Thank you, Lord!